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Long Time Coming

OH MY Gosh!   So much has happened since the last time I’ve written.

The hubby and I have moved.  Our family (hubby, baby brother (39) Mom) took a family trip to Tennessee to celebrate my aunts 71st birthday.  My oldest brother couldn’t go because he had been in the hospital for 3 weeks with a diagnosis of first Pneumonia then Mesothelioma, then just lung cancer.  We enjoyed the trip as much as possible but always kept in close contact with my oldest brother, we wanted him to go so bad even before he got sick, but even more when we found out, but he couldn’t travel.  He wanted us to go and enjoy ourselves because our family had been planning the trip since January and we would only be gone 2 days, but for me it was two long days.

The good part about it is that we got a chance to take a trip with our mom, which we had never done and she really enjoyed herself.  It was 157 degrees in Tennessee that weekend but we didn’t care.  We got a chance to see family that we hadn’t seen in years and meet some cool new people too. We can’t wait for the next one, but I plan to have my oldest brother with us this time.  I believe God to heal him.

Still doing a lot of reading, studying, and note taking for the love of my life, creating fragrance oils, and skin care products.  Meeting new people that are adding substance to my life and causing me to stretch….that’s always a good thing for me.

I just wanted to stop in and drop a note to connect with you all.  Thanks so much for reading.

So, what have you been up to lately?

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Posted by on July 30, 2013 in General

 

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That Time Again

Yes, it’s the time of year that I love most; Fall/Winter.  I don’t know if its because of what it represents, hibernation of nature and renewing itself for the warmer months that are sure to come back, or if it’s because of the changing of colors of the trees, to start anyway, and then the snow that makes everything so beautiful when it first falls.

This time of year does represent something spiritual for me.  I remember a long time ago that somebody told me that the colors that the leaves change to are always there, they just don’t appear until it’s their season, their time.  For some reason this struck me as information straight from God.  I thought to myself, “that’s just like the people of God.”  You know that God has a work for all of us to do, but the timing and release for us to walk in that work isn’t always when we think or desire.  While we are waiting for God to release us, we are molded, cultivated, pruned, trimmed, plucked, planted, fed, and watered.  All those things keep us “green” while the Lord perfects us and when our “season” comes, He releases us and our “colors” come through.

Then when it comes to the snow, it puts me in the mindset of the Blood of Jesus and how he covered, but rather took away our sin.  The snow when it first falls is so white and untouched.  God looks at us through the blood of Jesus and the finished work of the cross, so when the snow falls it always gives me a gentle reminder of what The Father has done for me.

The colors of Fall are so rich and warming. Sometimes I can even detect a hint of Fall fragrance in the air when I see certain colors, just warms me right up on the inside.  Then we have the Christmas season of winter, with the decorations and lights, and festive colors.  It keeps me in a festive, yet creative mood and mindset throughout the whole season.  I love to go to different cities where there are different cultures to see how they decorate and celebrate.

The food, the movies, cartoons, clothes, getting together with friends from near and far, taking silly photos, hugs, kisses, Hot cocoa, sweet potato pie, and a host of other things that just give me a warm fuzzy feeling at this time of year.  Sometimes I wish that I could bottle or box it all up, and open it up to pour out in the middle of summer because for some reason people are more loving, more caring, and more considerate of others at this time of year.  If we could get that going all year, the world would be a better place, but that’s wishful thinking.

Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts.  I hope you have an Amazing Day!

 
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Posted by on November 10, 2012 in General, Spiritual Encouragement

 

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Behold, I Shall Do A New Thing!

Hello Everybody!

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything and I’ve really been going back and forth in my head as to what to write about, whether it be what’s new with Fragrance Cafe’ or my personal life adventures 🙂 or, my spiritual journey.

Well, many of you can probably tell that I’ve chose the Spiritual Journey.

To fill you in a little; my hubby and I joined ourselves to a new ministry after being loyal members of another ministry for about 12 years.  This happened after God began to show some things that He wanted us to know concerning His Kingdom, Kingdom Living, and the true function of a ministry.

As He began to reveal some things to us, it became evident, although not comfortable, that it was time for us to get ready to leave this particular ministry.  We stayed before God concerning this matter because after all, I was spiritually born in this particular ministry.

OK, fast forward, at the beginning of this year The Father began to speak through His prophets concerning His Will for us and what it is that He has in store for us as well as what He wants to do through us.  All year long He confirmed and reconfirmed all that He started speaking at the beginning of the year, and now He is speaking some things to me that are new.

It’s funny how when you receive a word from the Lord through one of His Prophets, you get that feeling of “uh oh, so, that is God and I’m not crazy”  or some may call it a feeling of confirmation.  At the beginning of the year The Lord began to tell my husband and I that He is going to restore us.  Then He said it again, and again, and again for a total of six times.  I’m thinking to myself, “when God tells you something concerning your life, you feel honored that He would speak to you. After all I’m speaking of The Creator of The Universe.”  The fact that God would send 6 different people who don’t know each other, or me and husband, to say “I’m going to restore you” you tend to not only be convinced, but if there is any gratitude in you at all worship should flow from your lips like a fountain.

Then one day a lady came to me and said “yes, you are a prophetic psalmist.”  I was like oh God, please don’t do this…why is it that we always feel unworthy, when God has deemed us worthy?….She began to tell me how God knows that I’ve been holding back and that He didn’t want me to hold back anymore.  She said “Apostle already knows, he’s just waiting for you to come to him so, you need to be obedient and go.”  So, I did, I went to my Apostle and told him what had been said to me and he said “yes, I knew it the first day you took the pulpit, I’m just sad that it hasn’t been cultivated before now, but its there and don’t worry, we’re watching and we’re with you.”

Since the first time the prophetic word was spoken about me moving in the realm of the prophetic, God continues to confirm over and over that this is what He wants for me.  I’m so honored and in awe of God right now.  I continue to say “yes Lord, be it unto me as You have spoken, I accept the call.”  I continue to ask God to bind my ear to His voice.  I continue to worship Him with my life, and learn and study how I can be a blessing to others.  Just when you think you’ve got it all down, God says “Behold, I shall do a new thing!”

 
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Posted by on October 29, 2012 in Spiritual Encouragement

 

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My 911

11 years ago on this date at 8:45am I was at work.  My Supervisor came running out of the back office screaming “Oh My God, A plane just hit the World Trade Center!”  I thought to myself “how in the world could somebody be that blind?”  Before I could turn to continue my work somebody else said “you’ve got to be kidding, another one!”   Immediately I thought about the sermon that the Pastor of my former church had preached just that Sunday.  He talked about us being on the verge of war and how we should make sure we have ourselves lined up with God’s Will for our lives.  He said Jesus was coming and we didn’t know when but He is coming.

On July 17th my now husband had just asked me to marry him and we had only been engaged two months at this point.  Fear began to grip me.  I thought that I wouldn’t have a chance to see him again.  I thought I wouldn’t get the chance to walk down the aisle and actually become his wife.  At that point the phone rang and it was his voice on the line that I heard.  He asked if I was ok. I said, “no, I’m scared!” ” Are we going to be able to get married?”  I remember saying “I guess it’s started” He assured me that we would get married and told me that he understood me being scared but I had to trust God.  So I prayed and did just that.  Of course everyday from that point I asked God to take the fear away from me because it was very real.

While at work, and while I was still on the phone with him, our secretary came running and screaming “they just hit the Pentagon”…I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.  I called my mom to check on her.  I wanted to go home.  I didn’t feel like working anymore that day.  I wanted to be with the people that I loved.  I felt kind of dazed and sick the rest of the day, but I got through it.

When I did get home that day, I sat with my mom and watched the news as they gave account after account of the Towers Burning and finally falling to the ground.  I saw people jumping, I heard people screaming and crying.  Everybody looked the same though.  The smoke and ash covered all of their faces.

For a brief moment the human race had become one color.  Heroes were made that day, but so were widows, and widowers, people lost mothers and fathers and sisters and brothers and it was just an awful feeling to me.  To look at the city of people dealing with what had happened and see how it changed and would continue to change them forever just broke my heart and right there in front of the tv as the Towers fell I cried.  I cried for The City, I cried for The People, I cried for The Families, I cried for Our Country.

 
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Posted by on September 11, 2012 in General

 

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More Being Human

Today is better.  Yesterday, however was not so good.  I mean the overall day was ok.  I got a lot of reading done, found some new product websites and got to catch up on some note taking.  By the end of the evening I was crying and crying, and crying some more.

What started it all is my watching Netflix and the seasons of “Brothers and Sisters.”  It was one of my favorite programs when it was on tv.  I had been enjoying the episodes up until it got to the one when Kitty had a miscarriage.  I was handling the fact that she had a miscarriage just fine, but then they threw in a scene where she actually got a chance to hold her still born baby.  That threw me straight into emotional overload.

I had a similar experience some many years ago, and watching that scene was gut wrenching for me and it really and truly caught me off guard.  I began going back over my life thinking about what I have done, the things that I didn’t do, and some of which I feel I should have done.

It really began to weigh heavy on me the fact that my wonderful husband and I never had any children of our own.  We have his two boys which I’ve always considered mine anyway, but for some reason yesterday I was in emotional overload.  I mean I couldn’t turn the tears off and it was driving me crazy.  I’m not one to have pitty parties, but I had this feeling of loss and regret gripping me like a piece of wood in a vice in wood shop class.

I eventually dried up all the tears and went to bed saying, “Father, I don’t know what this is all about, but I’m sure you do. So, heal me as I lay here and go to sleep tonight.  Allow me to actually get some rest, not just sleep.”

When I woke up, I felt better, but I could feel my body fighting the feeling of being up and walking around as the hubby and I set out on our Saturday Errands.

The day seems, even now, to be moving really slow and I’m ok with that.  He cooked us some delish food and I took a nap.  When I woke up I felt much better.  I can’t help but think, what is lingering inside of me that keeps coming to the surface in a fit of tears.  I’m sure that God will reveal, and until He does I’m just going to stay in prayer about it.

Continuing on my Being Human journey.  Thanks for reading, share your thoughts.

 
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Posted by on August 25, 2012 in General

 

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Being——-Human

So many times we are referred to, and it is true, as human beings.
Lately though, I have found myself existing as a “human DOING.”
Doing this, doing that, planning for this, finishing up that, looking at this, finding that…just always moving and/or doing.

Even in my quiet time with God this morning I found myself struggling to bring my mind in and concentrate on Him. I’m normally able to just zero right in with Him and get my refreshing for the day. I found myself thinking of what I needed to do as I came out of my time with Him and really having to pull myself back in. I just wanted quiet. For about the last week, and especially the last few days, I have been looking for quietness. Stillness. Nothingness. No conversation. No plans. No list. No needs. No wants….Just longing for a place within myself of still and quiet.
The phone rings, and I glance at it as though it is a literal enemy. “I don’t wanna talk to anybody” I say to myself. “I don’t want any reports, whether they are good, bad, mediocre or otherwise. I’m feeling really good on the inside. I have a spirit of great expectation, but I still just want Quiet, Nothing, Stillness.

I know that as the day progresses I’ll have to come out of my little cocoon I’ve created in the morning to bring a balance to myself, but if I could just have it a little longer, and a little more often.

What do you do to bring your balance back with the world seems too loud around you?

 
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Posted by on July 22, 2012 in General, Spiritual Encouragement

 

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Good Deeds For Sure

Ok, so last weekend a few friends (the hubby, and the worship team of my church) and I all got together to see the new movie by Tyler Perry. The main reason I wanted to see it is because I had been reading a few Face book stats from men saying that it was a typical “Tyler Perry, angry woman gets saved by a nice guy” movie…and I not only disliked the remark, but just felt that Tyler has so much more in him than that.
So, during the movie I had some moments of laughter, thought provoking moments, and truly gut wrench crying moments. This movie put it all out there. I mean just when you think that you know the woman that you might work with, how she’s always angry and snappy, how she seems to always be running late and having excuses; this movie makes you stop and say “wow, you just never know what the next person may be dealing with in their life outside of the job.”
I found myself shaking my head in pain for this woman as one bad thing after another, after another, after another just seemed to fall in her path. I know a few women that have dealt with the very thing that this woman dealt with in this movie, but the only thing is that they had to just struggle through. Nobody came to their aid, nobody was in their life who could really do a “Good Deed” to bring them out of their situation. When you see people in your life struggle, regardless of how they got there, and you CAN’T do a thing to help them directly it crushes you on the inside. I watched this movie with so much emotion because to me it was like watching a 20/20 story or documentary…well in actuality it was a documentary. How many of you have been or know of somebody who’s been in that situation or almost in that situation? Either way it is a scary thought.
Even the seemed to be angry and ungrateful brother had some underlying issues as to why he “seemed” angry, ungrateful, and even bitter. You just never know what is in the heart of a person; which is why its so important to walk in love toward people in this world. As humans we face 100 million things on a day to day basis, some of which connect us in so many ways that we really don’t have the room or time to be judgmental of each other because we all have something that we are dealing with. What you deal with may not be what I have to deal with, but it still remains that we all are connected by certain human struggles.
At first look this woman just seemed to have a really really bad day, but as you sit and watch and take in all that is going on you see that she is in this predicament do to a loss in her life and her having to make a quick decision to keep her and her daughter afloat.
Wesley, who is “The Man” in the movie, even had his own issues that he had to deal with, but as he learned more about this woman, he also learned more about himself and his real dreams and desires for life. His character showed me the sacrifices that we as people sometimes make, all with good intentions, but can be detrimental to our own dreams for our lives. His desire to make sure that the dreams of his father and mother stayed afloat was draining him, to say the least, as he worked endlessly to appear in control of it all. He had dreams of his own that were on the back burner because of what his mother “wanted” for the family business. The disrespectful and degrading relationship of the younger brother and the mother made me literally want to slap his face…LOL…I’m so serious, but later I understood, he too had a dream. It was amazing to watch one brother live the dream of the other while putting his dream on hold and the other brother become bitter and resentful to him for “living his dream” so to speak.
When Wesley really found out the truth of what was going on with this woman there was something in him that would not allow him to just sit by and watch, but he absolutely had to do something. This was so inspirational to me because of the dreams that I have to help people on a larger scale, but for now I do what I can.
What a different type of world we would be living in if as a people when we see others that truly need help step up and do something to help them. We may not be able to do it all but there is something that we all can do and if we just start there change would really be obtainable.
One thing I can say about this movie, without making this movie review into a book, LOL, is that it pricked my heart. It made me take a lot of things into consideration in my life and the lives of those that I come into contact with. This movie makes you go into yourself and for me that’s always a good thing to leave a movie with. Entertainment is a good thing, but a life changing thought provoking movie encounter is something totally different. I’m proud of Tyler Perry and Good Deeds. If you haven’t seen it, you should go see it.

 
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Posted by on March 15, 2012 in General

 

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