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You Just Never Know

As I sat in service listening to my Apostle speak about life and transition I was inspired hearing his testimony.  He was encouraging us to make the changes that we want in our lives and how to go about making those changes by starting with “the decision.”

He told us how he came from a family of under achievers.  He said that his family was known for being shy, not speaking out on things, and just barely getting by.  He stated that even he himself barely made it out of high school.  When he said “you’re looking at a man that barely made it out of high school,” I shook my head in disbelief.

I’m talking about a man who is a Judge (well respected and honored) in the City of Detroit, and has been for some years.  A man with the integrity that other men aspire to, a man who in his 50’s decided he wanted to go back to school just because he wants to learn more about some things, a man who’s whole family (wife, 3 sons, and 2 daughters) are all in school).  I’m talking about a man who’s daughter is a practicing attorney, and still decided to go back and get her masters degree.  So, as you can see education seems to be something that is the base of this family.

The Apostle said that he took a year out of his life as a set back to set himself up to go forward and change the history and legacy of his family.  He was encouraging those of us that sat in the congregation that day to reach for what others may not see for you.  He exhorts us all the time to trust in the plan that God has for us and for our lives.

It really inspired me to sit and listen to his testimony of accomplishing the very thing that his family was known not to do.  He re established the “talk” about his family of being under achievers to a legacy of education.  

You just never know when you look at a person and what they have accomplished, what it took for them to get to where you see them.  Not only that, you just never know what it took to inspire them to reach for what seemed to be the unreachable.

 
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Posted by on January 14, 2013 in General

 

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My 911

11 years ago on this date at 8:45am I was at work.  My Supervisor came running out of the back office screaming “Oh My God, A plane just hit the World Trade Center!”  I thought to myself “how in the world could somebody be that blind?”  Before I could turn to continue my work somebody else said “you’ve got to be kidding, another one!”   Immediately I thought about the sermon that the Pastor of my former church had preached just that Sunday.  He talked about us being on the verge of war and how we should make sure we have ourselves lined up with God’s Will for our lives.  He said Jesus was coming and we didn’t know when but He is coming.

On July 17th my now husband had just asked me to marry him and we had only been engaged two months at this point.  Fear began to grip me.  I thought that I wouldn’t have a chance to see him again.  I thought I wouldn’t get the chance to walk down the aisle and actually become his wife.  At that point the phone rang and it was his voice on the line that I heard.  He asked if I was ok. I said, “no, I’m scared!” ” Are we going to be able to get married?”  I remember saying “I guess it’s started” He assured me that we would get married and told me that he understood me being scared but I had to trust God.  So I prayed and did just that.  Of course everyday from that point I asked God to take the fear away from me because it was very real.

While at work, and while I was still on the phone with him, our secretary came running and screaming “they just hit the Pentagon”…I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.  I called my mom to check on her.  I wanted to go home.  I didn’t feel like working anymore that day.  I wanted to be with the people that I loved.  I felt kind of dazed and sick the rest of the day, but I got through it.

When I did get home that day, I sat with my mom and watched the news as they gave account after account of the Towers Burning and finally falling to the ground.  I saw people jumping, I heard people screaming and crying.  Everybody looked the same though.  The smoke and ash covered all of their faces.

For a brief moment the human race had become one color.  Heroes were made that day, but so were widows, and widowers, people lost mothers and fathers and sisters and brothers and it was just an awful feeling to me.  To look at the city of people dealing with what had happened and see how it changed and would continue to change them forever just broke my heart and right there in front of the tv as the Towers fell I cried.  I cried for The City, I cried for The People, I cried for The Families, I cried for Our Country.

 
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Posted by on September 11, 2012 in General

 

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More Being Human

Today is better.  Yesterday, however was not so good.  I mean the overall day was ok.  I got a lot of reading done, found some new product websites and got to catch up on some note taking.  By the end of the evening I was crying and crying, and crying some more.

What started it all is my watching Netflix and the seasons of “Brothers and Sisters.”  It was one of my favorite programs when it was on tv.  I had been enjoying the episodes up until it got to the one when Kitty had a miscarriage.  I was handling the fact that she had a miscarriage just fine, but then they threw in a scene where she actually got a chance to hold her still born baby.  That threw me straight into emotional overload.

I had a similar experience some many years ago, and watching that scene was gut wrenching for me and it really and truly caught me off guard.  I began going back over my life thinking about what I have done, the things that I didn’t do, and some of which I feel I should have done.

It really began to weigh heavy on me the fact that my wonderful husband and I never had any children of our own.  We have his two boys which I’ve always considered mine anyway, but for some reason yesterday I was in emotional overload.  I mean I couldn’t turn the tears off and it was driving me crazy.  I’m not one to have pitty parties, but I had this feeling of loss and regret gripping me like a piece of wood in a vice in wood shop class.

I eventually dried up all the tears and went to bed saying, “Father, I don’t know what this is all about, but I’m sure you do. So, heal me as I lay here and go to sleep tonight.  Allow me to actually get some rest, not just sleep.”

When I woke up, I felt better, but I could feel my body fighting the feeling of being up and walking around as the hubby and I set out on our Saturday Errands.

The day seems, even now, to be moving really slow and I’m ok with that.  He cooked us some delish food and I took a nap.  When I woke up I felt much better.  I can’t help but think, what is lingering inside of me that keeps coming to the surface in a fit of tears.  I’m sure that God will reveal, and until He does I’m just going to stay in prayer about it.

Continuing on my Being Human journey.  Thanks for reading, share your thoughts.

 
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Posted by on August 25, 2012 in General

 

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Being——-Human

So many times we are referred to, and it is true, as human beings.
Lately though, I have found myself existing as a “human DOING.”
Doing this, doing that, planning for this, finishing up that, looking at this, finding that…just always moving and/or doing.

Even in my quiet time with God this morning I found myself struggling to bring my mind in and concentrate on Him. I’m normally able to just zero right in with Him and get my refreshing for the day. I found myself thinking of what I needed to do as I came out of my time with Him and really having to pull myself back in. I just wanted quiet. For about the last week, and especially the last few days, I have been looking for quietness. Stillness. Nothingness. No conversation. No plans. No list. No needs. No wants….Just longing for a place within myself of still and quiet.
The phone rings, and I glance at it as though it is a literal enemy. “I don’t wanna talk to anybody” I say to myself. “I don’t want any reports, whether they are good, bad, mediocre or otherwise. I’m feeling really good on the inside. I have a spirit of great expectation, but I still just want Quiet, Nothing, Stillness.

I know that as the day progresses I’ll have to come out of my little cocoon I’ve created in the morning to bring a balance to myself, but if I could just have it a little longer, and a little more often.

What do you do to bring your balance back with the world seems too loud around you?

 
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Posted by on July 22, 2012 in General, Spiritual Encouragement

 

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What Discovery?!

Let the scientists tell it they’re always discovering some “new” planet or galaxy or whatever they want to call it….The fact of the matter is….It’s not new because God created it, it’s just newly discovered to them. We know that the human eye cannot behold all that God has created at once, and certainly will not discover all that He’s created in our lifetime.
Let us look at Hebrews 11:3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.

Then take a look at Romans 11:33-36 O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! 34 For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who hath been his counselor? 35 Or who hath first given to him, and it shall be recompensed unto him again? 36 For of him, and through him, and to him, are all things: to whom be glory forever. Amen.

To me all of this says that Our God, which is the Creator of all things has created things that our eyes haven’t seen, but from time to time He uncovers things for the human eyes to see.

Thank you for reading. I look forward to your comments.

 
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Posted by on February 29, 2012 in Spiritual Encouragement

 

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This Is Where We Come In!!!

There has been an outbreak of violence involving children and teens everywhere in the last couple weeks.  Please join me in the following prayer and go so far as to send it to others that you know will pray.

 
Father, we come to you united and standing in agreement for the deliverance of our children.  We come against the assignment of the enemy against every child and teenager in the name of Jesus.  We plead the blood of Jesus over our children and call them out of every snare that has and seeks to entrap them in the name of Jesus.  We rebuke the spirit of rage, anger, murder, violence, rejection, depression, wickedness, and every other spirit assigned to them as individuals and as a generation in the name of Jesus.  We speak to these spirits and command that they be loosed from children and teenagers everywhere, we rebuke every generational curse and every word curse spoken over our children in the name of Jesus.  We call these spirits to be plucked up by the root and cast into the depths of the sea in the name of Jesus.  We decree and declare deliverance for our children and we say that they are people of integrity and character that honor their fathers and mothers and others in authority in the name of Jesus.  Our children are blessed and mighty in this earth with a kingdom influence in this earth in the name of Jesus. Father, we ask that You heal every hurt in our children, mend every broken place in the name of Jesus.  Open their eyes Father that they may see the error of their ways and be turned around in the name of Jesus.  Move every obstacle Father that stands in their way of getting to you in the name of Jesus.  We decree and declare that our children shall influence this nation in a greater way to turn people’s hearts back to you, they shall live and not die and they shall declare and do the work of the Lord in every place in the name of Jesus.  We thank You Father for deliverance for our children in the name of Jesus.  Send peace, healing, understanding, love, and acceptance to our children Father, cause people of mighty, positive, and powerful influence to them to get them back on track.  Father, every parent that is not in their place in their children’s lives Father cause them to come forth and be and do what You have called them to be to the children of this nation and children everywhere in the name of Jesus.  Father, turn the hearts of the fathers back to the children and the children back to the fathers in the name of Jesus.  We give you thanks and praise for the deliverance of our children Father, we decree that it is so in the name of Jesus. Amen.
 
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Posted by on February 29, 2012 in General, Spiritual Encouragement

 

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Adventures on The Road Home-The Next Day

My first post about our journey to find a new home church ended with “Now the next day is a whole other story…but you’ll have to come back to read that.” You’ll have to read the first post to get the full picture. LOL!

So, this is what happened the next day. I wake up from a really peaceful sleep, in spite of what happened the day before. I’m feeling grateful in my heart and spirit and I express that gratefulness verbally to The Father.
I go into the kitchen to start my coffee and hear this weird sound and I think to myself “did I leave the faucet on after washing my hands?”
So, I go to the front restroom of my apartment and low and behold there is water pouring down out of my ceiling, out of a heat fixture that is in the ceiling to boot. LOL! I stand there with my mouth wide open and say “Seriously! Are you KIDDING ME?!” and then I just burst out laughing…I mean don’t get me wrong here, I’m the type of person that leaks, and water running where it shouldn’t normally freaks and frazzles me something awful, but not this day.
I throw my hands up in the air and said “oh devil, you gets nothing, Nothing, NOTHING!” Then I began to thank God that I wasn’t standing at the sink when it happened because the water would’ve fallen directly on top of my head…then I thanked Him that the water didn’t cause an electrical fire…and all I could hear was the song by Jesus Culture “Oh How He Loves Us”…I mean it was like since what happened Sunday didn’t move me, the enemy wanted to try something else, but I instantly went into a mode of praise and thanksgiving unto God. Afterwards I call the maintenance guy, and go back and finish setting up my coffee to brew. By the time maintenance arrives I’m sitting with my Bible on my lap and coffee in hand, with a smile on my face.
This road home, of which we have landed, has truly and continues to be an adventure, but I thank God for it all. In the midst of every negative thing that has happened God has rewarded us with unexpected gifts, friends, and surprizes that we never even dreamed of. I can truly say that I’m more happy in my walk with Him now than I’ve ever been. Growth is good.

 
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Posted by on February 26, 2012 in Spiritual Encouragement

 

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Adventures On The Road Home-Landed

Well, we finally made it.  We’ve chosen a place to settle in as our “home” church.  It has truly been an exciting, fulfilling, and faith building journey.  In the beginning we called it a church tour, we had some ministries that we had wanted to visit for a long time, but religious thinking and allow others to control our actions kept us from doing so.  It feels so good to just really be free in the Holy Spirit. 

In the beginning we created a list of things that we want God to do for us in this year.  The first thing on our list is Confirmation.  We wanted confirmation of our decision and on some other things in our lives and God has been more than faithful to fulfill our request.

It seems that every time we visited a place God would use somebody to say “restoration is coming to your house.”  I mean yesterday in service must have been about the 5th time God used somebody to speak to us concerning all that we’ve been through spiritually over the years, naturally, emotionally and the list goes on.  What I love about God is that He wanted to make sure that get the message of Him saying to us “I’m restoring you.”   Since the beginning of the year we’ve have been given specific words that pertain to us personally and to us as people of God as a whole.  I have truly come up, and so has the hubby J, in a level of faith.  I have learned what it means to be free in God even more than what I thought it could ever mean.  I have also learned that some people that I thought were with an for me and what is best for me really aren’t ; that is a hard thing to accept, but God is faithful to heal all hurt and pain from the past.  He even said that He is going deep to remove some things that I didn’t even realize I had allowed to set in. 

God is so mindful and attentive of us and He will stop at nothing to make sure that we get what He wants us to have if we stay faithful in seeking Him and what His will is for our life.  My husband and I have suffered a lot in “ministry” and for a long time we thought that it was all just a test.  What a relief to know that we were on the right track about some things and not just being rebellious.  When God begins to reveal His truths to you, nothing in you will accept any different from that, but when you’ve allowed yourself to be steeped in one way of thinking for so long, when truth comes, sometimes its hard to break free.   I’m grateful to God for His faithfulness, of which He does not owe any person, to continue to chase us just as we chase Him…Now I know the true meaning of “blessed are they which do hunger and thirsted after righteousness, for they shall be filled.”  Shall is a promise and God keeps, always keeps His promises.

So, I say to those who are struggling to come out of religious thinking, be encouraged.  Keep your ears bound to the voice of God, keep your eyes on God and be ready and willing, however scary it may be, to just trust God and step out on faith to do what He has instructed you to do.  He will not lead you astray and He only wants the best for you.  Now I won’t tell you that you won’t be tested by the enemy when you first step out there because he wants to try and convince you that you aren’t serious about God.  I will tell you that when the enemy comes, humble yourself under the hand of God, resist the devil and he will flee…and even better than that, as you continue to trust God, He will continue to prove Himself just because He loves you. 

It feels so good to finally be “HOME.’

 
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Posted by on February 6, 2012 in Spiritual Encouragement

 

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Adventures On The Road Home

This blog is to mark the transition of my life as my husband and I step out on faith to find a new home church.  God began to reveal some truths to us about faith a couple of years ago and He desires us to be in a place where we can grow in what He has begun to reveal to us.

We started visiting this one church and our spirit leaped within us as we sat in the first service.  God began to speak to us about some hurt that we suffered and we received what God had for us that day.  The musical portion of the worship service blessed us from the first sound.  The freedom of expression in worship is one of the things that we were looking for so, this made us feel right at home.

As the word went forth we began to feel some long chains fall off of our minds.  It was truly a pleasant and inspiring experience.  Later that week we went back for bible study and more of the same happened.  We were able to see where we had been programmed to think a certain way, which God had already began to reveal truth, and now those things were being broken off.  Liberty began to truly engulf us and make us free.

Skip ahead to week number two in this adventure.  We are on our way to church and as we were on the road about to turn down the road in which the church is on, I felt a “boom” and then the car slid.  Puzzled, and startled, I admit I said “what the hell?!”…I looked at my husband and he said I think the axle just broke.  I thought to myself, “you have got to be kidding me.”  He got out and popped the hood and looked under there and said, “yep, the axle broke.”  I just couldn’t believe this was happening.

My husband got back in the car and calls his friend, who owns a towing service, to request help.  He agreed to help, but stated that he wouldn’t be to the city for about 3 or 4 hours.  I thought to myself…are we suppose to just sit here?….my husband informed his friend that the care would be parked on Outer Drive at Stotter.  He looked at me and said, “baby, were gonna push this car to the side and walk on down to the church.”  At this point I’m thinking, are you kidding me?  I thought we were going to sit here and wait for the tow truck, its cold, I have on 3 inch heel boots.  

Now you’re probably thinking oh my God, what in the world?  But I am one who has learned to be submissive to my husband regardless of whether I think he’s right or not because I know that it pleases God that I obey Him.  So, honey directs me what to do and gets behind the car to push, and out of nowhere a gentlemen comes to our aid to help push and then disappears down the street.  We parked the car, I said, “I plead the blood of Jesus over this car” and we walked on down the street.  The good thing is that my heels were the thick kind so, they really weren’t hard to walk in, but the enemy began to bombard my mind with things and for a minute I began to wimper as I walked.  This continued for a minute until I began to think about how we could’ve been at the half way point and further from the church and home so, I thanked God for allowing us to be so close to the church.  Then I thought about the fact that we were suppose to have my mother in law with us that morning, but she wasn’t feeling well enough to come with us so, I thanked God that we didn’t have to have mother out here in this weather walking on a cane down to the church.  I thought about the fact that nobody was directly behind us in the turn lane to crash into the back of us as the car abruptly came to a stop so, I began to thank God for His divine protection and timing upon us and with us.   Then I just began to pray in the Holy Spirit because I remembered that the bible instructs us to build up ourselves in our most holy faith by praying in the Holy Ghost.    Then I just began to recall all the scripture that I’ve studied, read, and confessed about God taking care of us, being our shepherd, no weapon formed shall prosper, all things work together for good, the father knows the things that ye have need of, my God shall supply all of your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus, the Earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof, the world and they that dwell therein.  I just began to remind God of His word.  We got to the church and the musical portion of worship was high and in full swing so, they held us at the door so as not to break the moving of the spirit.  So, just as I stood there I raised my hands and began to praise God right where I stood until they allowed us to go to our seats.  When we got to our seats, I set my stuff down and went full on into the presence of God praising Him like I always do, loudly and with tears.  I told God that “it looks bad, but I trust You Father.” “You are my God, my shepherd, my king, my Lord.”  I mean I just praised him with abandon because I began to realize that this was an opportunity for God to yet again show us who He is.  We stayed for the whole service and God encouraged us even in the midst of the service.

We were able to get our car towed to where we wanted it, get food to eat, buy the axle for the car, and set up for it to be fixed the next day and then get home safely, warm, and sound.   I was exhausted so once we got home, I ate and went and laid down, thanking God for how he took care and caused everything to line up for us in spite of all that had happened that day.

I could have just allowed the enemy to fill my mind with a bunch of junk about how we were broke and wouldn’t be able to get the car fixed, and how we had nobody to come to our aid and nobody really cared about us anyway.  He even stooped so low as to tell me that if we would’ve been still going to the other church somebody would’ve came directly out to get us.  I’m so glad that God’s Word is my source and answer for my life concerning everything in my life.  The Word of God will sustain you, strengthen you, encourage you, and cause triumph to come to you.  There are angels assigned to minister for heirs of salvation, of which I am, and they respond to the voice of God’s word.  When we speak the Word of God, He hastens to perform it by sending forth ministering angels to bring us into His best.

Now the next day is a whole other story…but you’ll have to come back to read that.  Thanks for your time today and joining me on my adventure on the road home.

 
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Posted by on January 17, 2012 in Spiritual Encouragement

 

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